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[06 Feb 2007|12:45pm] |
Life has become a huge mess of feuds and drama.
I hate it.
I hate dealing with everything.
I'm so stupid.
I need to figure out what I need to do.
Where I need to go with my life.
I'm sorry. Everyone.
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[03 Dec 2006|04:50pm] |
Wasted away...
I've given too much compassion to other people,
and now I'm left with nothing.
Nothing to call my own
except for problems
and mistakes.
I need someone to care for me
Like I care for them.
Someone who wouldn't just dismiss me as a failure.
As a screw up.
I throw things away
and I'll continue to do so.
I am weak
but I don't want it to be the case this time.
I deserve better.
I deserve to be treated like a princess.
I don't always ask for it,
but I deserve love, or I deserve nothing...
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[27 Sep 2006|05:02pm] |
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When is everything going to become super dooper for me?
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[24 Sep 2006|07:13pm] |
don't trust anyone in an unstable relationship.
i've been majorly screwed.
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[17 Sep 2006|10:49am] |
I wish I could give you every second of my day.
I wish I could make you laugh uncontrollably.
make you smile.
make you happy.
I want to give you everything you want.
I want to give you all of me.
I go crazy sometimes.
I get angry and depressed...
I want to get inside your head.
I want to know what you spend all this time thinking about.
I want to touch your lips.
I want every kiss to feel like the first.
I remember that kiss.
I was so excited.
I had waited forever for it...
Sometimes I wish things were different.
I wish we had more time together. Think of what we could be...
I love you. And I hope to God you love me.
I worry about it sometimes.
It breaks me down.
It makes me cry...
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[02 Sep 2006|04:18pm] |
Everything has been okay...I have been tired, but I'm getting used to it. School has been less stressful than I had imagined.
I'm getting worried though about how long my money will last. I don't have a job and I have to pay for gas and diapers often. I really hope Ryan turns in those damned child support papers so he can start taking responsibility. what a shit head.
I'm sorry...
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[27 Aug 2006|02:45pm] |
Bleh, my life has become a tiresome blur beween schoolwork and baby. I want to go do something fun. I wish I had freetime.
Does anybody have any suggestions of fun that we could do and that I could bring a baby with?
bleh, I have a lot of homework to do...
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[18 Aug 2006|04:01pm] |
School starts on Tuesday; I'm going to die.
I am so sleepy.
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[27 Jul 2006|10:16pm] |
Today while I was working, my father came to clean my room. I didn't want him to clean it in fear he may throw something away or I wouldn't be able to find anything. I was angry when I walked in the door to see a clean floor, but with further examination, my anger subsided. To my amazement, he didn't actually clean my room; he just made piles of all my stuff and put them against my walls. That's the way I like it. [At least when other people clean for me.] I can see the floor, and everything is still in it's place. Today has turned out good. [Except, two of the girls that I talked to the most at work were fired and now I have to go in early. Not to mention I already have to get up early for a 9:00 am ultrasound.]
Bleh, I should sleep.
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[14 Jul 2006|01:23pm] |
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NAME MY BABY!
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[08 Jul 2006|11:01am] |
Rearranged my room for baby. It's weird.
Also got a new comp. It's great! Same tower as the ones at maximum gamer. Lots of brains too. [I also stole the internet.]
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[03 Jul 2006|03:18pm] |
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I can't handle this anymore.
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[28 Jun 2006|11:48am] |
OMG, I just took a bite of cereal, then had to sneeze. In an attempted effort to not get milk and Cocoa Crunchies everywhere, I kept my mouth shut and blew out my right lung.
I kind of hurt now...
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[26 Jun 2006|01:11pm] |
I wanna make a cake!
A also want to go to FoCo, but I work 35 hrs a week now. Only have two free days...
Cake party at Genoa's! [call and we'll set it up.]
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[24 Jun 2006|10:03am] |
Who in the hell would steal money out of a new mother's diaper fund?! I think someone stole about twenty dollars out of mine. Fuckers. I can't believe this! The only people around too were Chelsea, Tristen, and those stupid boys Chelsea always has over. The nerve and greed of some people. What the hell? Does anyone have common courtesy these days?
Whoever hung out with me at the baby shower later, do you remember how much I was told was in the diaper bag?
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[19 Jun 2006|02:43pm] |
Lame.
Almost time to scavanger hunt...
I hate the smellof all my deoderant. It makes me sick. I need yet another stick.
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[18 Jun 2006|01:02pm] |
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I love Simon and Milo [prozzak]
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[16 Jun 2006|02:49pm] |
Camping was disappointing.
I didn't know drama could survive in the wilderness...
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| Bad Movie Review. |
[14 Jun 2006|04:02pm] |
Finally saw X3 today. Overall, I liked it.
The beginning seemed a little more exciting than the ending. There were a few things that I did not see coming, which completely left me with the OMIGOD effect. The ending, and mostly every scene with Jean, reminded me of a Carrie movie. The story line was alright; it wrapped up the trilogy quite well, but WTF was up with that segment after the credits?! [Too bad I couldn't remember what Xavier was lecturing about in the beginning...
Whatever. It was a good movie. See it if you haven't already.
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